A rainy Friday definitely makes me more pensive than usual. This morning's topic:
Am I happy with the progress of this week? No.
I don't even know where to start but I don't feel like I have been giving this "lifestyle change/healthy lifestyle" my 110%. There have been times when I think that I just didn't make the healthier decision. When I say that I mean that instead of eating some fruit in between jobs on Wednesday I decided to buy sweet potato fries & 4 piece nuggets from Burger King instead. I told myself that I would only eat half the order of small fries and still have to work at Banana Rep. for 3 hours so it balances out. I still put that snack into the MyFitnessPal app and I was still inside my 1200 calorie budget, however seconds after I took my last bite I went on Instagram and saw all of my healthy/fitness or people just working on losing weight putting up encouraging pictures, healthy recipes , etc. and I felt like CRAP!!! I become very hard on myself when I have weak moments like that because when will the cycle stop. It is a "small" meal now but then it snowballs into an actual meal then a weekend then finally an entire week and I'm back at square one.
I know that I shouldn't be this hard on myself but I want to be honest with how I'm feeling during this process, which brings me into my next emotional vent. I'm so use to craving everything. Everyone I'm close to knows that when I crave something it won't stop until I get it. It can be anything and everything from Red Lobster cheddar biscuits to a strawberry milkshake (my most recent cravings). And now that I'm trying to eat better my cravings have gotten even more crazy!
I want to believe that it is mental and I need to overcome this, just like an AAA person deals with craving alcohol. I think they say once you get to Week 4 it becomes habit and don't get cravings as much, so ending Week 2, lets hope it gets better!
A co-worker is being bitchy about this eating healthy and being more active; Amanda and I are being vocal to have even more accountability at work and our manager Renee is very health conscious so she has given us some advice; however this co-worker is just so negative and says lil side comments about what she does (mind you she drinks a can of Coca Cola in every meal- clearly not someone I want to take advice from) and will either tempt us or tell us these cravings are just because we are depriving ourselves. I have so many people rooting me on but that one Negative Nancy is the one that I hear the loudest! I found the first person that wants to see me fail (I'm sure she doesn't but feels like it). Haters are Motivators ha
I want to be proactive about these cravings and really get other options so thanks to Pinterest I found this!
Definitely going grocery shopping to buy some of these items as well as trying a Pinterest recipe this week!!! If anyone has any suggestions on what I should do so I won't think about cutting corners or how to deal with cravings or anything really it would be awesome!!
